My purpose in undertaking graduate study in the ABSN program at Pace University is to develop my skills and knowledge to help people and care for them in times of need as a nurse. I have a long-held interest in helping and make a difference in people’s life. My main inspiration to become a nurse comes from my mother’s compassion and love in helping others and my life’s stressful experiences. I have learned through the years that life is a journey and it must be traveled no matter how bad the roads are. When I first started college back in 2006 was pursuing nursing but I change my career to accounting. I wish I had had the knowledge and maturity that I had now back then. I should have looked for help and focus on my goal in becoming a nurse.
My mother is one my biggest inspiration. Her devotion and compassion towards her family and every single person who is surrounding her is incredible. She is the kindest person in this world. Her work ethic and love to assist others in their needy time is amazing. She has been working for over 10 years as a home aide (home attendant), the passion and love that she demonstrates toward her patient is so inspired. I follow her ideology of treat others how you want to be treated, stop judging and listen. I have learned to just simple become the compassion and respect I want to receive. Without doubt, she is the best person that someone could ever meet.
The last two years have been the harder years in my life. I want to genuinely share with you how I felt and what I went through. In 2017, I suffered a miscarriage. It was of the tough moments I had experience in my whole existence. It was my first pregnancy. I could not help but feel so alone and unable to talk about what had happened without crying. At that horrible moment, I felt so lucky to have met the doctor and nurse who guided and supported me. I remembered how I was able to feel the nurse’s compassion and love through her hug and words. When I was able to recuperated, I remembered feeling this innate desire to help, and to follow the steps of my Ob/Gyn nurse. The following year, I lost my little brother. He was only 26 years old, and left behind my niece who was only three years old at that time. His dead was so unexpected and devastated. I had learned that moving beyond the pain of losing someone you love is the most difficult experience a person can live. At the time of my brother’s death, I started working at Columbia University Medical Center as a financial analyst. Although, it was a great position, there was something in me that was not feeling satisficed. I believe we all feel wistfulness or regret about roads not taken, for that reason, I quit my job to purse this dream.. The death of a loved one often leaves a large hole in the life of her/his family, the hole that my brother and baby left me was a wake-up call to follow my dream to become a nurse.
How do I live my life now so that I have no regrets on my deathbed? This is the question I have been asking all this time after these life’s most stressful events. I have decided to come back to school to fulfill my dream. I want to make a difference in people’s life just like my Ob/Gyn nurse did. There is a Chinese saying that goes: “If you want happiness for an hour, take a nap. If you want happiness for a day, go fishing. If you want happiness for a year, inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime, help somebody.” I am looking for the feeling a person gets by helping someone, a feeling that you can only feel within your soul. I know this is my passion, because I will be integrating my interest and skills with the needs of others. I have been so blessed that I could never say, ‘I wish this didn’t happen.’ The decision I had made, it is part of who I am today.